March 12, 2012 by CJ
The more I want to write the more excuses I have for not writing. Just the same for running. The more I want to run, the more I don’t. When I started this blog I had visions of writing so much that I would have to force myself to take breaks. I knew I’d be knocking off all these things on my list, so much so I’d have to add to my list and change my blog to 60 things or 70 things…
A few of the things that keep me from blogging:
- Children-which make me so tired I then must sleep
- Work-another thing that makes me want to sleep
- Reading- what I do before I sleep
- Television-helps lull me to sleep
- Drinking- not that it’s a habit or anything like that, but it definitely aids in putting me in sleep mode
The other day I realized my first race for 2012 was quickly approaching. I felt ill prepared for my first 5k of the year. I felt that was odd since I had been running at least 3 times per week. Then I checked my running log (the daily miles link on the right there). Up until this past week, I had only been running 2 days per week, just how delusional am I? That list above, that keeps me from blogging-yup, same exact reasons why I haven’t been running more. I’m going a little crazy now. I’ve signed up and paid to run two 10k’s and one 10 miler and I am currently struggling to get through 3 miles. Not even 3.1, I barely survived 3.07 this past Sunday! UGH!!!!
How do I change these 2 things? Write more. Actually, that’s not all that true. I write quite a bit. What I don’t do is post. I have a ton of drafts, I don’t need to write anymore, I need to 1. Complete what I begin and 2. Post. My running problem. That can only be fixed with more running. As much as I don’t think I have the energy or the time, I’m going to have to push myself. That’s why I signed up for those
stupid races to begin with, to push myself. Maybe I can get myself up to 4 days a week…maybe.
For now, I am going to post this, get to bed early and I’m going running in the morning. One day at a time…