March 5, 2012 by CJ
I came across this picture the other day as I was going through some old things.
This is what my life was like, being a stay at home mom with twins. That is my son on the floor reading what was at the time, his favorite book, upside down and backwards. And yes, that is my daughter, climbing onto a table with a bucket on her head. As I stared at that picture, I felt that all too familiar stinging pain in my eyes. As if someone was cutting onions and sprinkling salt into them. Before I knew it I was crying. Bawling really, like a big old baby. I escaped into the only room a mom can close and lock a door without questions, the bathroom. As I sat on the edge of the tub, drying my eyes with toilet paper, I tried to figure out why I was crying like this.
That time in my life was crazy, as you can see by the room. I’m very happy to have survived it. In many ways it was an easier time. Our biggest issues were getting them down for a nap or eating all of their vegetables and there was that talk of using the potty. But now, as my babies have grown, they face much bigger problems in their lives (mean kids at school, homework, boys, girls, clothes, parties, etc) and I don’t have all the answers. I do find myself longing for that crazy, loud, messy, sleepless, simpler time.
Somewhere in all of this I reminded myself of a Dr. Suess quote I posted on facebook in celebration of his birthday.
“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.” I need to remember this. I’m sure there will come a time when I long for 10-year-old problems…